Category Archives: Pain

Rape Not Believed

Posted on May 24, 2011 by Flux

I have not written here for awhile because I received a wounding from a dear dear friend that hurt so intensely I could not even speak for a few days. This woman came into my life eight years ago and … Continue reading →

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Lessons Learned From a Puzzle

Posted on April 18, 2011 by Flux

My little girl smiles up at me with a somewhat mischievous look. All the visions and parts in her head bringing her delight as she realizes they have all shown up for her. With perseverance and patience each piece of … Continue reading →

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To Be or Not to Be

Posted on April 15, 2011 by Flux

I sink further in my isolation. I have now crossed to a place where I just want to be alone. If I am alone, I cannot be hurt by the pretending that everything is alright. I can’t be hurt by … Continue reading →

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Sharing Honest Survivor Feelings

Posted on April 15, 2011 by Flux

I wrote this a few days ago as my anniversary dates approach. Right now I am choosing to survive, writing this drained enough of my energy to allow me to lie down and sleep. I have debated about posting it here. … Continue reading →

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Making Rape Less Unspeakable

Posted on March 17, 2011 by Flux

Perhaps too much time alone is too much time alone. WARNING: I offer a warning to whoever may be triggered by, judgemental of, or find too much information in my authenticity. Please do not read this entry. Again I am … Continue reading →

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