Category Archives: Pain

Broken Girl by Matthew West

I posted this song awhile ago when I first found it. It is now my angry music when I am allowing the pain and the rage to move through me. Today when I was searching YouTube, I found this version … Continue reading

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How to Comfort a Rape Victim

I have an amazing brother. I have three really and two are so much older than me, our lives do not touch very often. In my shame and fear after the rape, I did not and still have not told … Continue reading

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Anger Silences

Preparing for this anniversary week, I scheduled extra counseling sessions. On the first day with my therapist, instead of feeling compassion for myself and what had been done to me, I kept getting stuck in anger. Since this was an ongoing trend for me, … Continue reading

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Well Trained to Stay Silent

Last week while I was meeting the director of the facility where I was brought after my rape, I was triggered by something we were talking about. This woman, a therapist; victimologist; trainer; and liaison to the police and detectives; knew … Continue reading

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Anticipating Rape Anniversaries

As some of you know, I am just a few weeks shy of facing the anniversary of the horrifically life changing nights last June; the nights a male stranger thought he had the right to violently and humiliatingly invade my body. The anxiety of … Continue reading

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