Category Archives: Fear

Flasback of Being Laid Bare

Posted on November 15, 2010 by Flux

~WARNING~…may be triggering The flashback. Intense fear. Afraid to allow the memory to surface. Paralyzed to dissociation, extreme nausea, and labored breathing ? My mind tries to protect me and my body still breaks out in physical pain; a biological response … Continue reading →

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PTSD Sink Hole

Posted on November 12, 2010 by Flux

Yesterday, out of nowhere I learned one of the tough lessons of recovery: The higher you climb the farther you fall. I have been doing so well lately with regards to my symptoms of PTSD and the emotions that go with it. … Continue reading →

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Scars Tell Our Story

Posted on October 19, 2010 by Flux

I have been very bothered by the physical scars left behind from the rapes. Seeing them on my body is a constant reminder of what happened and I have had this erroneous belief that having them gone will help me … Continue reading →

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Dissociating the Stories

Posted on September 28, 2010 by Flux

“The little girl watches from a distance, safely above and beyond reach; the naked woman lays frozen in a death like state while the predator violates her body.” So begins the revealing of an experience of my rape. Being faced with a knife, the threat of rape, … Continue reading →

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Stained Glass Masquerade

Posted on September 23, 2010 by Flux

The tears flowed freely, the available shoulders numerous. At least for the first couple of weeks after the attacks. Slowly others’ tears seemed to outnumber my own. The burden of knowing their pain was feeding from mine became arduous.  I understood that they were grieving … Continue reading →

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