Category Archives: Emotion

Velveteen Love

Posted on June 17, 2011 by Flux

Tomorrow is the one year anniversary of the rape that I reported, which ended up being a drug out nightmare because of the detectives challenges to me, the ignorance of the medical staff, and the inexperience of the police officers. Today I … Continue reading →

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Anger Silences

Posted on June 13, 2011 by Flux

Preparing for this anniversary week, I scheduled extra counseling sessions. On the first day with my therapist, instead of feeling compassion for myself and what had been done to me, I kept getting stuck in anger. Since this was an ongoing trend for me, … Continue reading →

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Well Trained to Stay Silent

Posted on June 11, 2011 by Flux

Last week while I was meeting the director of the facility where I was brought after my rape, I was triggered by something we were talking about. This woman, a therapist; victimologist; trainer; and liaison to the police and detectives; knew … Continue reading →

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Not Broken

Posted on June 7, 2011 by Flux

When I look into the mirror, I don’t [yet] see a survivor, I see a damaged broken woman. Instead of seeing courage and tenacity, that I pulled from deep inside, I see a failure. This, I am finally starting to … Continue reading →

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Anticipating Rape Anniversaries

Posted on May 25, 2011 by Flux

As some of you know, I am just a few weeks shy of facing the anniversary of the horrifically life changing nights last June; the nights a male stranger thought he had the right to violently and humiliatingly invade my body. The anxiety of … Continue reading →

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