Monthly Archives: September 2010

Blaming the Rape Victim

I have seen this quote in several places. If it is so frequently spoken of, I know I am not the only one whom detectives turned on:  Rape is the only crime in which the victim becomes the accused. – Freda Adler … Continue reading

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Survival’s Shame

I was really amazed when I started to understand how much of the shame and guilt I was feeling after the rapes was put on me by those around me. A lot of this from those who love me most, and are sadly ignorant … Continue reading

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Self Reminder – Endure

I am pleased to say that Saturday  was a much better day emotionally than Friday and I found a quote in my Mary Engelbreit book entitled “Artful Words” that is a fitting reminder: Endure, and keep yourself for days of … Continue reading

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Shattered Life

I awoke yesterday morning to a flood of intrusive thoughts and physical flashbacks. It is abhorant to feel the malevolent perpetrator. It disgusts and nauseates me, makes my skin crawl as though infested with toxic slime that cannot be rubbed off. My anger escalates … Continue reading

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My Heart and My Flesh Fail

I was having an increasingly difficult time in the days between the first rape and the time I finally revealed it to a counselor two weeks after the second rape. Out of extreme fear, I had originally lied to my family, … Continue reading

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