I awoke Thursday feeling physically worse than I had the day before. It was my second day out of the hospital and I was hoping for at least a little improvement each day. On top of that our weather increased in temperature and I had yard chores that had to be done that day. Outside in […]

posted by Flux
Filed under: Emotion, Life, Pain, Scripture

The migraines returned. Two and a half short days. Today is the 29th and I have officially had four days this month without significant physical pain. After exploring all other options, weather, bad food, bad drugs, medication issues, etc. I am coming to believe that the biggest culprit of all is still my battle with […]

posted by Flux
Filed under: Emotion, Life, Pain, Scripture, Shame

I have been very bothered by the physical scars left behind from the rapes. Seeing them on my body is a constant reminder of what happened and I have had this erroneous belief that having them gone will help me forget what happened. I have even taken measures to try to remove them myself. Recently, […]

posted by Flux
Filed under: Emotion, Fear, Life, Recovery, Scripture

I acknowledge that I have been behind on my writing lately. Today marks the first day headache free in over two weeks. My migraine kicked up with the last major storm and decided it was going to stay. After multiple calls to the doctors, and different mild treatments, they finally decided to have me treated […]

posted by Flux
Filed under: Emotion, Flashbacks/Memories, Life, Pain

Countless hours are spent in therapy, post trauma, learning coping skills for when the PTSD flares. I have done writings, drawings, and craft projects as those wiser than myself try to ingrain in my head, healthy ways of dealing with terrifying, unrecognisable pain without first destroying myself. I have spoken here many times of the […]

posted by Flux
Filed under: Comfort, Emotion, Flashbacks/Memories, Happy, Life, Pain, Recovery, Resources