Monthly archive for ‘ September, 2010 ’

Love Unmasks Fear

30th September 2010 | 0 Comments

I found a mask at a very young age that I thought fit well, hiding who I truly am, hiding pain too deep to reveal. The mask would shroud what I felt, that bad things happening around me were my fault, and that I was bad, I was simply worthless. Recently when the rapes happened I managed to dig the mask back out and found […]

God Rejoices Over You With Singing

29th September 2010 | 0 Comments

A friend whom I have not seen in many years gave me a special book when she heard about my struggles. The title was enough to touch me. In the back of the book was a CD of the song that she wrote for her friend. Please enjoy “Dear Friend” by Stacie Orrico: When I […]

Dissociating the Stories

28th September 2010 | 0 Comments

“The little girl watches from a distance, safely above and beyond reach; the naked woman lays frozen in a death like state while the predator violates her body.” So begins the revealing of an experience of my rape. Being faced with a knife, the threat of rape, and possible death, I flashed back to the childhood place of coping. I had learned at too […]

Stained Glass Masquerade

23rd September 2010 | 2 Comments

The tears flowed freely, the available shoulders numerous. At least for the first couple of weeks after the attacks. Slowly others’ tears seemed to outnumber my own. The burden of knowing their pain was feeding from mine became arduous.  I understood that they were grieving for someone they loved, and still I was crumbling under the weight. Each tear chiseled […]

Secret’s Power to Destroy

16th September 2010 | 0 Comments

I have written here about shame a lot as I have found myself face first in it again. When immersed in this toxic shame, we are constantly tempted to do anything to get rid of that feeling, if even for a little while. One of the things that woo’s you in the midst of this is keeping things you do or think […]

Archives Copyrighted © 2010-2012

I'm a survivor.